Less then a year later..

Sometimes things happen in a way that makes you catch your breath. Sometimes they happen to make to question if it is really truly happening, and if it's going to eventually lead to something really really horrible happening. Maybe that's only me.

On March 23rd, 2012, six years and one day later, Justin and I got married. FINALLY. Many things held us back. He asked me to marry him oh, I don't know.. 6 months after we have been dating. We had different problems that held us back from finally getting married. But, we finally did. It was pretty anticlimactic. I think this because we had been together for so long, and we have been living together for a long time, so not a whole lot changed. I was now his wife, and he was now my husband, and we were officially the Barkers.

Now, what not many people know is that I had been on the pill for the last 6 years. The sheer thought of getting pregnant scared the living DAYLIGHTS out of me. I was too selfish to be responsible for another human life! But... around Christmas time, 2011, something inside me changed. What? I don't know. But I do believe in that biological clock theory.

After a long talk, I told Justin in January what was on my mind, and we agreed that I could stop taking the pill, and "let nature take it's course". We weren't exactly "trying" but not preventing. We get married on March 23rd, go down to Busch Gardens and Sea World for a little honeymoon thing, and come home.

April 3rd rolls around, and auntie Floie has yet to make her appearance. So, I'm home alone, and I'm one of those people that if something pops into my head, it must be done. My idea? Take a pregnancy test. Ok, this is were it gets funny. I worry.. I worry about EVERYTHING. I pretend that NOTHING worries me. Yeah, no. I go online and research pregnancy tests, because that's how I am. I end up at WalMart, and bought the Equate WalMart brand, and the Clear Blue Digital. I'm still alone, haven't even mentioned to Justin to what I was thinking. I only mentioned to my friend Candice that I was late, that's it.

I took the Equate WalMart one 1st, within 3 seconds (I kid you not) it screams that I am, in fact, pregnant. I cried. Took a picture, and sent it to Justin. I started to seriously wonder why it was SO FAST in saying positive. So I took the digital one... wasn't as fast, but still positive under a minute. Of course I googled it, and one of the reasons could be because of twins. But the opinions were very different, so I didn't take much thought into that.. I just kept being excited for the fact that I am going to be a mommy!!